Recovery is Foxie

Recovery Fox



A New Understanding
Of Empathy For The
Feelings Of Victims
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Empathy for Victims
{Am I A Bully?}

    1
    My bankruptcy taught me a new concept
    As my inability to forgive lept
    With the power that comes of the spirit.
    Self pity is exactly like my deep pit,

    2
    I thought that I understood a victim's pain,
    Thought I understood the unforgiving strains,
    The block that stops ability to forgive.
    But I had not compared it to my own sieve.

    3
    The mental block that won't allow healing.
    I've seen the attempts, those abused dealing;
    Damned by their self-pity and hate,
    Deeply hurt in their unprotected hearts,
4
Unable to forgive perpetrators,
Unable to forgive their abusers.
Thus unable to forgive me also.
For Tim abused a child, became her foe.

5
The Spirit helps me see myself clearly.
I'm just like that as in fear I can see
Bullies in my life that forgive I must.
Because of the fraud of the bankruptcy crust

6
But I of myself cannot for I deserve
To hate and seek judgment before I can.
I want God's job. I want immediate
Punishment as on God's throne I would sit.


7
Help me, oh Lord, to allow and as I plead
Help me ponder, and let the spirit lead
I cling to pride. Why can't I be humble?
Why can't I forgive, submit, be able;

8
I must again allow his love to work.
Slowly bringing a stubborn mind's quirk
To slowly learn that His way is not mine.
Thus freeing my mind for His joyous shine