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Abandoned by my prison stay, My selfishness thus helped Bring about her hurting And lack of wanting to Apply effort to being sexual. Penetration though may always be just lust, she each time just giving, and I selfishly taking. She desires it not to change. As part of SA's program, I've done an abstinence for a few short months. Is “all this life” an answer God wanted me to discover? Willingly? The idea is still only a seed, but it has been planted. If it is a good seed And is nourished it will grow. |
She is giving enough To share the act with me but it may never be part of our intimacy. I see, but don't yet accept. My Savior has been telling me “be patient.” Now I begin to see why. Only now can I start to see intimate truth. That I must be willing to give up the climax in order to find a true complete intimacy with my Vivian. a time of abstinence 12 step program suggested may for me have no end, and I must be willing to accept that as possible. |